Date of publication: February 28th, 2019
He’s the hot-as-sin rocker hiding a secret that would devastate his fans. She’s the only girl he’s ever loved, but keeping her safe means he had to walk away…
My entire life is a lie, propelled by one wrong decision that altered my fate.
If fans knew the truth, they’d run away screaming. But all they see is Ryder Stone, moody guitarist and lead singer of Torment, and a potential notch on their bedpost.
Only two people know who I really am. My manager has a vested interest in keeping my secret, and the girl I was forced to leave behind doesn’t even know the true extent of my shame.
Losing Zeta is both my biggest regret and my proudest moment. But she was the glue keeping me together, and I’m struggling to survive without her. Especially when demons from my past continue to haunt me and the threat of disclosure is ever present.
When she reappears in my life, this time, I’m too weak to push her away.
Her love has the power to save me.
Mine has the power to destroy her.
I’ve worked hard to forget my past. To rise above my messed-up childhood and make something of myself; however, there’s no forgetting him.
Ryder’s gorgeous face and drool-worthy body are plastered over tabloids and TV screens, reminding me I’m still in love with the boy who captured my heart in juvie.
When he failed me, I thought I’d never again experience such heart-crushing pain. But watching him fall out of clubs with a succession of different girls renews the agony, resurrecting countless unanswered questions.
Now my boss has sent me to interview him. It’s a massive scoop for the magazine, and turning it down would kill my career. So, I delude myself into thinking I can handle this.
Perhaps this is the closure I need to finally move on.
Except I’m terrified nothing has changed and one look into those soulful eyes will suck me in again.
Ryder almost destroyed me last time. This time, he could ruin me forever.
This book shattered me. I knew going into it that this was going to be a tough book for me to read. But I didn’t know how tough it was. I also wasn’t prepared for the range of emotions that I had while reading it. My emotions went from extreme anger to horror to happiness. It is very rare that a book can do that to me.
Only Ever You was able to grab me from the beginning and keep me reading. I actually finished the book in 1 day, that is how much I got into it. Ryder and Zeta’s story was one of the most compelling and heartbreaking stories that I have read to date.
I liked how the author split the story into 2 sections with an author’s note and prologue. I will admit, the prologue broke my heart. I was sobbing as I finished it. The prologue was needed. It set the entire tone for the whole book. The events in the first half of the book were needed also. It is where the author showed how damaged Ryder and Zeta were. How hellacious their upbringings were. How those upbringings shaped them.
The second half of the book showed the fallout from the events in the first half and the prologue. I am not going to go much into this part of the book. If I did, I would be giving away some major spoilers. I will say that Ryder was one of the most damaged heroes that I have read…ever. The raw emotion that he expressed touched me in a way that few characters do.
The love story between Zeta and Ryder was heartbreaking and hopeful. I know that is a weird combination to say but it is. I loved seeing Zeta and Ryder together. They were made for each other. But, there was a long stretch where I had doubts if they were going to even get back together. Even towards the end, I had my doubts.
I will say that I liked that the author didn’t have them have sex right away. She kept building up it up. The sexual tension drove me nuts. I kept thinking to myself “How on Earth is she not jumping on him and screaming “Do me now?“
I do want to mention that I thought Gar and Micah were idiots. Gar gave me the heebie-jeebies. That whole scene at Ryder’s Hampton house disgusted me. But it was a fantastic look at how rock stars partied. Excess to the max.
The end of Only Ever You prompted another crying jag. I was wrung out. But, at the same time, I was so happy. I couldn’t have been more happy with how the book ended. And the epilogue. I loved it!!!
I would give Only Ever You an Adult rating. There are explicit sexual scenes. There is language. There is explicit violence. I will include a trigger warning with this also. They would be child abuse, child neglect, child death, attempted rape, drug abuse. I would suggest that no one under the age of 21 read this book.
I would reread Only Ever You. I would also recommend this book to family and friends.
I would like to thank the author and publisher for allowing me to read and review Only Ever You.
All opinions stated in this review of Only Ever You are mine.
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